Season in the Basement...

"Come to Me, all you who are weary & burdened, and I will give you rest."

Matthew 11:28

Do you often take time to ponder?  Many of us, myself very much included, don't take much time on a daily basis to ponder.  However, I have found the need to focus on pondering more...especially when it is a prayerful ponder (ie a prayer or conversation with God, considering His Truth, His Word, and/or the notions His Spirit is revealing at any given moment).  Prayerful pondering is the gift of an opportunity to commune with God & take a moment to stop & listen to His still, small voice.  Prayerful pondering is an opportunity that will bless our souls.  I have found there to be nothing more soul-fulfilling than those moments with God, in the quiet and still of the morning, when I can come before Him and prayerfully ponder the Truths He has been busy revealing. If I simply stop and bend an ear, and take a moment to commune with Him, He is faithful to meet with me right where I am & bless my soul.

This season in the Basement (as we transition from our move from Tx to settling into CO) has led itself into one of such opportunities.  It has been a busy, active, FULL season...one in which our entire family has enjoyed the blessing of a smooth transition in all areas of life.  However, it has also been a season rich with lessons, dependance upon God, healing, and faithfully learning what Jesus meant with His words, "Come to Me..."  Had I not stopped to ponder, my soul would have missed some of the depth, beauty, and Truth of such lessons...and my soul would, no doubt, still be wounded, as only circumstances in life can come before us & wound.  I am so thankful for the gift that God gave me in speaking to my heart and laying the word "ponder" on my heart.  I am so thankful for how He has revealed Himself through this season of transition & that I have taken time to ponder His Truths. 

What are some of those Truths?  Well, I hope to share those with you below.  I pray it brings encouragement and glory to Him and will encourage you to draw near to Him, ponder His ways & His Truth, and, in His strength, move forward in applying His Truth to your life, as well.  It is such a joy to walk with Him during this gift of life on earth that He has blessed us with!

First & foremost, I have been  learning what it means & looks like to truly depend on God.  I have been learning to actively grow in dependence upon Him in daily living (oh, do I still have a long way to go!).  I have come to truly understand that the one goal in life & the one thing in life (of most importance) is to KNOW Jesus. Even when circumstances come along that will try to distract/draw & pull me away, if I stay focused on the goal of knowing Him & persevere through any of the doubt/uncertainty life brings, I will be blessed.  He is our Immanuel, our "God with us" (Matthew 1:23; Isaiah 7:14) & He is faithful to walk through any & all situations with us.  My joy is found when I continually seek Him first, rise up in His strength, and continue to use experiences (in life and with Him) to propel forward.  For, when I continue to open my Bible & seek Him, the breath of God is on my face.  It is such a reassuring reminder to me to remember how the Bible is a love letter from our Creator.  It is inspired & written by the One who made me. When I encounter Him in His Word, He puts life in the right persepective.  He is always faithful to reveal Himself and how He truly is our Immanuel.  

With this understood Truth, though, I am left to ponder before Him and question, "What is it that keeps me blinded to His glorious beauty?"  This is a question that I have come to realize that I need to continually bring before Him. It is a daily reminder of a question to ask of Him so He can continue to reveal where I am blinded by selfishness, indifference, hurt, emotion, or pride (all sin) & not able to see His glorious beauty.  It is then that the Truth of the lesson of confession comes into play and I realize that through confession and forgiveness, the blinders are removed and He comes into focus...in all of His glorious Light.

During this season in the basement, I have learned that it truly is a choice whether to live overwhelmed by life's circumstances or to live life in worship to our One True God.  It is  choice to be consumed by my own worry, anxiety, & pain or to give of my time & energy seeking Him, confessing & turning to Him, sharing all life's burdens with Him, and thus living an over-joyed life in Him.  If I need a tangible reminder of what this looks like, then all I need to do is turn to the pages of Matthew 1 and read the account of the Magi coming to worship the infant baby Jesus. 

"To the extent that I respond to Jesus & worship Him in complete surrender, my joy will be like that of Magi."

(Page 4, Lesson 2 BSF Notes, Matthew 1)

Completely surrendering and depending solely on Him is a goal.  To live life with a thankful and praising heart is a goal.  I can only  do these things in His strength and upon surrendering all to Him, depending on Him solely.  I must allow Him in, & seek/invite Him to be at work in my heart.  I must allow Him to disciple me.  I have learned how, that in order to turn my eyes upon Jesus, I need to remember how He invites me to simple "Come":

• Come & trust Me, Stacy
• Come & draw near, get to know Me deeper, Stacy
• Come and know Me in a more intimate & personal way, Stacy
• Come deeper in relationship with Me, Stacy

Finally, if I am depending, leaning, and growing in my relationship in Christ (truly & actively coming to Him), is there evidence (ie fruit) of this in my life?  More concisely, am I living like who I am in Christ?  Am I living in a way that remembers:

•  I am loved by  God
• I am chosen by God
• I am forgiven by God

Simply put, am I living over-joyed or overwhelmed?  Am I living out the call He has for me (and all His children) by living a truly Spirit-filled life, focused on God & growing with Him in all things? (BSF Notes Lesson 3, pg 4, Matthew 3:2 & 6)  I am reminded to choose joy....daily, choose joy, Stacy! (confession:  I am not always good at daily making this choice, but lesson be learned...I am striving to try!)

With this confession, I am reminded of John the Baptist and his one central message in the Gospels.  "John had one message...to repent & turn to God.  Where selfishness once ruled, generosity must replace greed---honesty must replace shrewdness---self-control & trust in God replace the determination to control my own situation & others." (BSF Notes Lesson 3, pg 4, Matthew 3:2 & 6)  Simply put, all people need to confess & repent.  Coming before Him daily in confession is central to living a life that allows Him to disciple & transform.  "Discipleship is found in continually taking the daily details to Him and surrendering it all."  (Karen Swanson, BSF TL, Matt 8:1-34)  Yet another lesson I am striving to learn as I daily come to Him.

An additional lesson God has been teaching (and I have been striving to learn) regards temptation.  Oh, how I have been tempted these past few months to step outside of God's timing and buy a house before it was time!  Encouraged in "manly" thinking that "we could make it work" (financially) & that "He has brought us this far...surely He will provide" (testing Him).  Thankfully, He walked closely with me in this and brought the passage in Matthew 4 of Jesus' temptation by the devil into my line of vision & my heart's focus.

I learned, from the devil's first question of temptation toward Jesus, that there is a subtle suggestion to be tempted to think God is not there nor that He cares.  As one looks at the passage, one can see that Jesus responds by waiting, trusting, & standing firm on the Word of God to resist temptation. We, as Christians, are called to follow the same example.  "God's promises give power to overcome temptation." (BSF Notes Lesson 4, pg 4, Matt 4:2-4)  If I am to put this Truth into action & apply it to my life, I need to answer the following question in regards to specific temptation:  "What are some scriptural verses to go along with rebuking temptation in my life?"  I found 1 Samuel 7:12 & Mathew 7: 11 to be my guide & strength to stand firm against temptation regarding patiently waiting in His timing for the provision of a new home, & trusting He would be faithful to provide.  Afterall, He didn't bring us this far (to CO) to not provide for us fully & it became abundantly clear that I simply must have additional lessons to learn during this season of transition!

“Thus far the Lord has helped us.” 

1 Samuel 7:12

 ^"If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him! "

Matthew 7:11

 

Yet another are of Truth lies in the study of Matthew 5.  "Salty Christians thirst for  God & enlightening Christians dispel darkness." (Karen Swanson, TL BSF Ft Collins)  Where do I fall in the category of being salt & light?  How essential is righteousness to me?  This Truth encourages me to yearn to walk so closely with Jesus that the above quote could be said of me.  May I be one who, in His strength, encourages others to Christ & not repel or turn them away!  "A life God approves is the result of a heart He has transformed."  (Karen Swanson, TL BSF Ft Collins) Do I daily ask myself, "How often do I refuse to help of even pity someone, because their own sin caused their problem?  Will I ask God to give me His heart & His mind in these matters?" (BSF Notes Lesson 5, pg 6, Matt 5:1-6)

Lord, I cry out...Your will, not mine...nothing more, nothing less!  Create in me a clean heart, oh God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me!

One of the most significant lessons I have learned while here in the "season of the basement" & depending on God & others lies in reconciliation.  

"Reconciliation is God's prescription for relationship repairs & how we get rid of murderous anger."  

 (Karen Swanson, TL BSF Ft Collins) 

Wounds can run deep, and my personality is such that I have a tendency to hang onto those wounds for far too long.  The last seven years in ministry have been wrought with challenges, difficulty, burdens, drama, & overall hardship.  Yes, there was good & spiritual growth wrapped up in it all, but these last few months have definitely opened my eyes to the repercussions & reconciliation to much of the hard stuff we walked through.  God has been showing me how to "Come to Him" with any & all wounds, and He will take on the burden.  He will heal.  He will be faithful to comfort, as long as I "come to Him" with it all, and I release it all to Him.  

"Am I holding onto anger?  Confess sin of unrighteous anger to God---then submit to Holy Spirit---who will replace that darkness with love, joy, and peace."

(BSF Notes Lesson 6, pg 5, Matt 5:17-48)

After much prayer, God answered what it looked like on my part to reconcile, especially in the area of one specific relationship.  He showed me, through His Son, how to extend mercy & forgiveness.  Upon confession of unrighteous anger & submitting to His Spirit, He indeed replaced those dark areas with love, joy, & peace.  He is faithful and He has done a transforming work in my heart.  Praise be to God!

Yet another area God has speaking into my life about regards prayer.  "There is an expectation of prayer as a follower of Christ & there is a secret place of prayer where He invites us to commune with Him in an intimate relationship.  All we need to do is be direct & simple...pray from a pure heart."  (Karen Swanson, TL BSF Ft Collins, Matt 6) Once again I am reminded how God is calling me to "come to Him"...lean into Him & depend on Him...allow Him to sustain in all things.

Recognizing this lack of dependency in my life begs me to ask, "Whom do I serve?  Who truly owns me?  Does money in our bank account control me?  When did I last rely on Christ & His power to release me from the pull of material things & the need for security?" (BSF Notes Lesson 7, pg 6, Matt 6)

This question alone begs me to examine my attitude. Do I worry or do I trust?  I have heard it be said that, "You don't believe if you're busy worrying...believe & let go!"  How I long to be a true follower of Christ that humbly relies on Him & lovingly relates to others!  How I long to focus on Him, and Him alone, thus turning all worry into worship!

Sigh...another key lesson revolves around judgment and criticism.  Oh how this continues to be a transforming work God is doing on my heart!  For, as it has been said, we are our own worst critic, right?  This season has opened my eyes to how readily & subtly criticism has been allowed to creep into my heart and thoughts.  It breaks my heart, for, never to do I wish to wound anyone with critical words, and have them experience the pain I have experienced at the expense of criticism.  For, you see, "when we are critical, we become unloving.  It's easy to draw wrong conclusions about others...we need to strive to understand their difficulties and refuse to criticize in our own minds.  Christians are
commanded to stop inspecting and start introspecting." (Karen Swanson, BSF TL, Matt 7:1-27) 

What a tangible reminder these words have been for me, and what a healing balm to my heart as I come to Him with this burden.  Oh how I need to look deep within myself when I find the threat & temptation of judgment or criticism coming on...and how I need to respond to others in love & understanding.  May I seek to remember the beautiful words & message from Hosea 6:6 that focus on caring about people and relationships, making them of utmost importance (next to Jesus), & to be loving & compassionate...not focused on anything less.
 

"Judging never encourages...it does not look for or appreciate the good a person may do...often when we do not love a person, we withold sympathetic understanding of that person."  

(BSF Notes Lesson 8, pg 1, Matt 7:1-27)

During this season of healing, after years of difficult & challenging times in ministry, child-rearing, challenges in marriage, etc, may I cling to Him with all I have and allow Him to examine my heart's attitude...transform me, Father.  Create in me a clean heart, oh my God, and renew a right spirit within me (Psalm 51:10-11, Stacy's version)  

   
Within all of this realization also lies a heart of unyielding or inability to recognize certain details within my own self.  How often do I struggle with even acknowledging my own need and then bring it to Jesus?  Often-times, too much.   Oh how I admire the leper in Matt 8:1-4 who "acknowledges His need, trusted in Jesus, & worshiped Him." (BSF Notes Lesson 9, pg 2)  May I become more aware of my own need for Jesus and have there be more of Him in my life and less of me.

Lastly, one of the most powerful & beautiful realizations God has revealed through this current study of the book of Matthew is the gift of how this season in the basement has been a "training mission."  From Matthew 10, we see Jesus instruct and send out His disciples:

"Jesus instructed His apostles to have no concern about their own needs...on this training mission they were to go in faith & learn to trust God to provide.  Jesus expected teh people who benefitted from the apostles work to house & feed them."

(BSF Notes Lesson 11, pg 3, Matt 10:8b-16)

This season in the basement has been our "training mission."  We have stepped out in faith (from Tx) & into a blessed time to grow deeper in faith, trust God for provisions, and grow our dependence upon Him and Him alone.  In return, we have been gifted with the beautiful joy of witnessing how His people come together to care for us, love on us, and provide for our very physical needs.  How humbling to be a witness and recipient of all this!  How beautiful of our Lord to provide the perfect dwelling for us, with the most gracious of families, & to have visibly protected us from so many catastrophes (ie flooding, financial duress, etc) as He has navigated the way to bring us here to this basement in CO.   

So, in the future, "when doubt & confusion cripple my faith, I/we must go to Jesus, or we will go deeper & deeper into darkness & despair.  We are to do same as John the Baptist & bring all to Jesus...remember who God is & reflect on His character &/or attributes."

 (Karen Swanson, BSF TL, Matt 11-12)

May I remember to "Come to Him...", hang onto His Truth, His Word, and onto faith to find healing and guidance in navigating through future doubt/confusion/etc.  

"Nothing creates faith & dispels doubt so much as to come to God Himself by personally reading the Bible...will I choose to trust God in my situation(s)? God, & God alone, can bring great fruit from great heartache."

(BSF Notes Lesson 12, pg 2, Matt 11:4-6)

Yes, Lord.  Yes, I will come to You.  I will seek You first (Matt 6:33) & I will bend deeply into You as I endure, persevere, and grow in faith.  I will come to You

• with all heart-ache
• with all doubts
• with all burdens

For You alone will strengthen & heal.  You alone will listen.  You alone will transform.  You alone will provide that right, eternal perspective.

 

I praise you, Father.  How I thank you for all you have been teaching/revealing/growing us during this season of provision in the basement.  Our hearts overflow with thankful gratitude.  We are thankful for your tender provision of all things:  for the way You alone have grown each of the girls in health & maturity, renewed their joy & desire to seek You, for the smooth transition in schooling, making friends, etc...for the families you have introduced us to and the way You have brought us all together to help one another, encourage one another, & to simply "do" life together through Your blessed & loving example.

 

What a joy it is to walk in Your ways, to be in Your will, and bask in Your presence!  Thank you, Lord, for this season of TLC & how, through this time of pondering, You have comforted and been at work in healing my heart, watering my soul, and restoring my joy to be in service to You & You alone.

Amen

  

  

 

  

 

To God be the Glory! What Great Things He Hath Done!

“This is what the Lord says—your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel:

‘I am the Lord your God, who teaches you what is best for you,

Who directs you in the way you should go.’”

Isaiah 48:17

What a joy it has been to witness God in the details of our lives, actively  guiding us through our prayers in this single verse over the past three years.  In glory & honor to Him, allow me to share just how He has been faithful to guide & how He is the sovereign One in control of our very lives:

This specific journey began following General Assembly of the PC USA denomination the summer of 2010.  Our denomination made choices  that went against our own personal beliefs, & as the votes across the country came in,  it quickly became a very confusing and grievous time for us personally, as well as for a majority of our church corporately.  We went through a season of prayer & discussion, as a church, to clearly discern the role God would have us all play in these changes at the denominational level.  Rob encouraged the church to make decisions for their church as a whole, and worked hard to purposefully not confuse his personal viewpoints with the church’s overall perspective.  He chose to keep his viewpoint veiled, for good purpose and reason.  See, it’s not Rob’s agenda the church should follow, but the Lord’s agenda…and seeking the Lord, His ways, His purposes, need not get confused by Rob’s personal thoughts, feelings, agenda, etc.  Never has Rob been the kind of leader that would throw out his perspective and say “follow this.”  Instead, he is the type of leader that is going to bring to perspective all the points & perspectives of a situation, educate & teach, so that the universal population can make the educated choice necessary for their organization (ie church). 

 In all honesty, it has been a precarious tight-rope that Rob has walked in guiding and leading, but one in which he has always encouraged the Session & elders of our church to abide in God & His ways regarding our church family.  Rob has also honestly shared time & time again that the path God leads the church down may/may not be one that God will ask Rob to follow.  The over-riding lesson in all of this should remain: fervently seek God, always.  (Matthew 6:33)

During this time, between 2010 through September, 2011, God was faithful to share two words with us: stand firm.  What a joy it was to witness Him answering the cry of Isaiah 48:17, as well as revealing some of His purpose for us to continue to trust in His perfect timetable!  To share just how God used these two words to encourage & strengthen me during this journey, let me share a journal entry I penned in April of 2012:

“Do not be afraid.  Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the Lord will bring you today.”                                          Exodus 14:13

“You, too, be patient and stand firm, because the Lord’s coming is near.”

James 5:8

“Stand firm...key words God has whispered over me these past several years.  It was a joy to experience this realization today. Lo & behold, standing firm in love has been the common thread woven into all circumstances we have encountered since ’09.  No doubt they will continue to be key words God has for me in this beautiful journey called life.

Stand firm, emphasized initially by precious friend and church-member, Betty Snowden, first in ’09 as we studied the Life of Moses together. She offered those words as a prayer for Rob and I as we walked through the highs & lows of home selling, financial difficulty, and church/Christian leadership.  Stand firm was reiterated just recently in James 5:8 as we currently find ourselves patiently waiting upon the Lord for His clarification in service & ministry.  The realization of how we have heeded, listened and obeyed His standing firm in love and the joy & peace that comes from such an awesome realization is simply amazing.  What a gift to receive this Word from Him today.

A passage in BSF notes from Lesson 28 resonates with exactly where Rob and I find ourselves currently, and I draw such encouragement from this understanding from James 5:8-10:

            “One problem with patience is that it appears to be entirely passive, and we are activists…Often we have to be patient in an active way…. “standing firm” suggest a more aggressive behavior---holding tightly to what you have, bearing up under oppressions so that you might give testimony to the gospel, not retreating from what you know.  “Stand firm” means that we are to endure as God’s ambassadors, making sure that we really live for Him.”

I am guilty of not being very patient. I am guilty of being an activist, eagerly searching for that “new” opportunity that will be the answer for taking us away from all current church/denominational drama, decisions, hardships, etc.  However, God is patiently asking me to continue “standing firm,” holding tightly to what I have.  Love the church, love its people, which are His people. 

            So, yes, for the time being we are to remain patient and to continue to stand firm.  We are to love His church, and focus on His beautiful eternal perspective vs a circumstantial perspective.    This eternal perspective is one of complete expectancy of how He is daily teaching/ growing/ refining me to be better suited for His eternal kingdom.  I choose to be refined for His glory so I can be better suited for His eternal kingdom.  I choose to take this High Road, that currently has us remaining right here in Arlington, Texas, living and breathing for Him…really living for Him…loving all those He puts in our path & ministering to them as they minister to us.” 

Although it shouldn’t surprise me, I still find it awesome and amazing that no sooner did I pen these words & more clearly understand God’s purpose for having us remain in the PC USA (for I personally wrestled with continuing to actively remain), then things would begin to change and a door soon open for the possibilities of serving elsewhere. 

            In May of 2012, God re-opened the door with Loveland, CO (we had first been introduced to them in 2011, however, at that time, they had two pastoral candidates and were at the end of their search process.  In God’s timetable, it was a closed door for us in 2011).  It was in mid-May that Faith EPC contacted Rob, sharing how they were reviewing his pastoral resume submitted from the precious  fall and wondered if he might still be interested in talking with them regarding the pastoral position (apparently their 2 candidates had fallen through and they were re-booting the pastoral search).  This simple phone call and opening of a door was such an answered prayer for encouraging Rob at this time. 

You see,  I had asked for prayers just the previous Sunday (prior to this contact from CO) as FPCA learned that they would not be leaving the denomination, but instead seeking to work within the structure of the PC USA to remain and reflect Light of being evangelicals and disciples of Christ, as well as becoming more missionally oriented.  Although the presentation went well and was well received, for most intent and purposes,  their pastor (aka Rob) was not.  He came home that Sunday night following everything being delivered & was so visibly discouraged...it was heart-breaking.  His discouragement stemmed from the realization that he was in a lose-lose situation as a pastor with the PC USA and that the battle could truly not be won from within any more.  With the denomination as a whole dying (and slowly dying for the last couple of decades), and fewer pastors coming into the denomination, we personally were looking at the slow death of our retirement & pension plan, as well as the denomination as an entity, and the reality that the denomination was allowing the culture dictate their faith vs the authority of scripture.  In all this, Rob continued to see the bigger picture and how there simply was not a future for him w/in the PC USA any longer, especially if he wanted to continue to healthfully provide for his family and our future.  On the flip-side, he was also seeing how his decision to leave would hurt many of those he knew and loved, and has loved for a lifetime (and whom he has seen significant spiritual growth in since his return to Arlington as pastor).  Needless to say, it was a heart-wrenching time for Rob...for me, too, but definitely for Rob, who was personally shouldering so much more than I ever have throughout this journey. 

However, that phone call from Loveland was an answered prayer to remind Rob that God was in control and is sovereign over all things.  With Loveland (aka Faith EPC), there was a promise of a new beginning and a new denomination (for us).   With this new piece of the puzzle, we sent out word to our prayer warriors to pray that we:

• Not grow weary in doing His will (Hebrews 12:3)
• Continue standing firm & steadfast, remembering our charge in 2 Timothy 4:5
• Continue to be made new in the attitude of our minds (Eph 4:23)
• To be given the Spirit of wisdom & revelation so we may know Him better & that the eyes of our heart may be enlightened in order that we may know the hope to which he has called us (Eph 1:17-18)
• To continue in humility & gentleness, being patient and bearing with one another in love (Eph 4:2; 1 Thess 3:12)

Upon sending out this prayer request, we truly began seeing the hand of God actively at work in amazing ways, and He revealed Himself & His purpose in incredible ways, especially through the studies of Nehemiah & Genesis, respectively.

In all glory & honor to our Lord, here is how we actively saw the Lord at work:

·         Faith EPC first came into our line of sight in the fall of 2011; until the spring of 2012, it was a closed door

·         God re-opened the door as of May, 2012 to revisit with Faith EPC

·         We moved forward with phone interviews & times devoted to prayer (by them & us) throughout the summer and into the fall of 2012

·         We witnessed, and Rob counseled, the pastor & church in Longview as they endured the grief-filled & divisive journey of being ripped apart by Presbytery over leaving the denomination in 2011-12.  Oh how God has a beautiful ending to this story!

All the above are just some of the literal details of what was happening in our personal lives.  Here is how God walked with us through the details through my personal study of Genesis (as penned in my journal in Feb, 2013):

  “How I have truly felt as if I were walking with Abraham through our personal circumstances with each page turning of my study of Genesis with BSF this year!  Oh what a role model of faith we have in him and how thankful I am to be studying him & Genesis during this season of life! 

  It has been from my study of  Gen 16 (Hagar & Ishmael) that I have truly felt reassured by God  that we have been faithfully walking in the path He has for us, abiding in Him and obeying what we have heard Him telling us.  Through the BSF lecture over this passage, I was reassured with principles such as: ‘Faith submits to God’s plan, awaits His timing, and obeys His directives’; ‘Faith recognizes and rejoices in God’s personal interaction and care & He mercifully intervenes in our lives” (just as He was proving to do with me as I sat & listened, glowing as He tenderly and attentively loved on me with reassurance of His Sovereignty); ‘By faith, believers in Jesus Christ die to sin and self in order to live for God’ (Gal. 2:20)”; and finally, ‘When we wait on the Lord, our reward will be deeper relationship with Him, & abiding joy, & strength.’ 
As  I have continued to abide in Him, He truly has blessed me with a transformed heart, spirit, and turned my grief & mourning into joy…a TRUE blessing from obedience!
So, now fast-forward to Gen 22....Abraham's ultimate test of sacrificing Isaac.  Abraham underwent testing and was told by God to "take, go, and sacrifice."  He was tested to his very limit, to show/ensure his love for God above all else.  Principle from this: ‘God initiates and allows tests of sacrifice to purify and deepen our devotion to Him.’  God also purges idols from our hearts through testing. 
I think we'll both agree that Rob and I have been enduring a season of testing.  One reason the first mentioned lesson on Gen 16 was so reassuring was that it reaffirmed that we were doing right by God. We were walking in faith, even though we didn't understand (see, after our face-to-face interview with CO in early Dec, God led us to say "no" to their invitation to continue in the process & become their pastoral candidate).  As for me personally, I was clinging to Him and learning to trust Him in a new level with my obedience and submission.  I was learning to trust in His love at a new level.  He never let me down...constantly comforted, reassured, and encouraged with His words (and with friends He brought my way) :)  He was also asking me to trust Him in ALL matters, even if that meant to remain in Arlington.  That was to be my sacrifice.  My dream of living in CO, being encompassed by living in an honest, transparent community, and the idea of adventure were only small components of the idols that needed to be sacrificed, as ultimately God was asking how deep was my trust in Him.  Do I trust Him if His calling were to remain in Arlington?  Do I trust Him if He were asking us to remain within the PC USA denomination as a family?  Would I move forward with Him and surrender all?  As you know, my answer was yes, and surrender/sacrifice was made. Was it easy?  NO!  Sacrifice & surrender always comes at a cost and it is never easy, however, isn't it interesting that only in the Christian life does surrender mean & bring VICTORY?  ;)  Key principle from this: ‘Faith in God's perfect provision enables true worshipers to surrender all.’  Also, as I continued to spend time with Him, and be in His Word, He made it abundantly clear that He already knew of the quality of my love for Him, but I needed to know that I loved God above all others.  This was something key He had been revealing and showing me during this entire faith-testing, and the key lesson He had for me to understand.

Back to Gen 22…as we carry on with Abraham, we know that he followed through in complete obedience, determination to trust & obey God in sacrificing Isaac, and he surrendered his will before God, being confident in God's promises.  Principle: ‘Our faith in God and His promises is revealed by what we do and how we do it.’  Such reassurance!  I had followed through in complete obedience, determination to trust & obey God, and surrendered my will before God, being confident in His promises.  Praise!  When my emotions had been in turmoil, my focus had been on Him and His promises, His past faithfulness, and Him alone...praise, praise, praise!

So, now we get to my even deeper encounter and interaction with God: a time that I have come to regard as the day God delivered my personal ‘Word’.

Gen 22:11-24 expounds upon God's intervention with Abraham and his sacrifice of Isaac.  He intervenes and tells Abraham to STOP!  Listen!  He lets Abraham know that the test is over now that Abraham has shown His willingness to completely trust.  It is time to go in a new direction, and Abraham is left in utter praise, adoration, and exuberant joy over the blessings that come from obedience.  

Here is how Gen 22:11-24 directly relates to us and how God visibly has been walking with us through the details of our lives:

-It was mid-January 2013 and several weeks since our last conversation with Faith EPC, where we had shared that God was leading us to say “no” to moving forward with them in the candidacy process as their possible new pastor.  This particular Sunday in mid-January, Rob had just gotten home from church, and we were talking in the kitchen.  Reviewing his sermon (over discernment...perfectly timed!) we both acknowledged & accepted the fact that God had us held here in Arlington for the present.  We both recognized the good works He had been doing through FPCA & in our community, as well as the purpose He had provided for us personally in ministry.  It wasn't but FIVE minutes later, after Rob had walked into other room to help our daughter with homework, that Rob came back into the kitchen, visibly disturbed.  He had just received an e-mail....from CO.

-Basically, the e-mail was from 2 of the committee members who were wondering how Rob would feel about discussing some questions they personally had as to why Rob left the candidacy process (they were interested in an exit interview, per-say).  They also made comments as to how they truly wished this were to be a more joyous and forward moving conversation with him as the possible new pastor.  Upon reading this e-mail, Rob was left with wondering if this new intervention was something God-ordained & that he needed to prayerfully consider.  The main question running through his mind was, “had he truly been blinded by other distractions and miss the call God had for him? Was this an opportunity for a "do-over?"  (And, yes, I was faithful to  share & quickly point out that even Abraham received a do-over in Gen 20-21...It was evident to me that this could be ours!)

So, Rob and I committed to being in prayer individually over the course of the next week, and come together mid-week  to share where we had both been led.  For, if we felt led to reconsider CO, then Rob was going to contact the head of the committee and talk things over with him prior to this slated “exit-interview” with the other committee members.  

During this time, Rob also had breakfast with his best friend. It was his best friend that reminded Rob of something he had somehow forgotten (his words, not mine) & that is, "Why was it you first got into this process of looking/interviewing?"  He reminded Rob of our conviction that we could no longer remain in the PC-USA.  Now, mind you, I have been sharing these very same concepts and words with Rob, but for whatever reason...he hasn't heard me like he heard his best friend that morning.  His best friend was able to remind & help open Rob's eyes to the truth and conviction we had to move on from the PC USA.  He further began to inquire if, due to Rob's health issues and the distractions VA posed (for there was another church that pursued us during this 2 year process), did those things get in the way of Rob truly being able to hear/discern God's calling/leading?  All of this became echoed in Rob’s personal praying over the course of that week.

When Rob and I came together mid-week to share where we had been led during our individual times of prayer, I shared that I truly felt we should contact the head of the committee in CO and see what the chances were for a ‘re-do.’  I explained how I continued to feel strongly that God gave us a ‘STOP! Listen!’ command in the kitchen that previous Sunday afternoon, and that I felt He was offering guidance down a new direction of re-visiting CO.  

All I can say is that all of this truly made me want to shout for joy!  Oh how I have been singing praises of adoration!  And, it’s not (solely) b/c God was possibly leading us down the road of another opportunity with CO, but more-so that I had experienced an interaction/intervention/& reassuredness from our Lord.  See, even if we were to remain in Arlington...I felt I had received a WORD from God and a reassuredness of His faithfulness.  It also seemed to me that blessings truly were coming from our obedience!

As for the rest of the story…God has revealed that CO is indeed in our future & it has been a joy to faithfully walk through the doors He has been opening.  As we have faithfully been moving forward in Him, other revelations of His faithfulness to walk alongside us and be with us have come to our attention.  It is with God-honoring joy that I share:

·         Confirmation from Above in recently discovering that, one of the couples who has been faithfully praying with us through this entire, crazy, faith-filled CO journey, had a dream that we would be extended a "re-do".  The husband (who had the dream) will honestly share that he is not a dream-visionary person, or one that usually has dreams that hold such significance. As we have discussed all the time-tables, it became clear that all this transpired just a week or so before our “re-do” became reality.  Not only that,  
this dream occurred, no doubt, right around the same time our Teaching Leader at BSF was delivering her message over Gen 20-21 & Abraham's "re-do" with Abimelech.  To God be the glory!

·         Another confirmation & blessing from obedience...financial provision.   God has richly been blessing us with regards to this transition and with granting us wisdom in our financial matters. 

·         God has also blessed me with restored joy.  No matter what the future holds, I always know He walks with me, He is good, He can be trusted, and He is faithful.  I am excited by our upcoming adventure to CO, and committed to faithfully walking with Him through every step of this transition & beyond.

·         God has blessed us with unity & immeasurable peace.  Rob and I are united in this decision to move forward with CO, where at one time we were not.  We have faithfully waited on God and His perfect timing, thus we have found His unity & peace.    

So, for those of you who have been on this journey from the very beginning…thank you for joining us in steadfast prayer.  It is due to all your prayers that we have truly been able to “stand firm” in the Lord through it all.  For all of you loved ones who are on this journey with us from here on out, thank you for your steadfast prayers also. For all of our loved ones, thank you for always being there.  Each of you ared treasure and I am so very thankful for how God has richly blessed us with each of your friendships.

In closing, I would like to share something a dear friend sent me during some of the most difficult times over this recent journey. It is a devotional taken from  Jesus Calling by Sarah Young & is in the December 21st entry:

"My plan for your life is unfolding before you.  Sometimes the road you are traveling seems blocked, or it opens up so painfully slowly that you must hold yourself back.  Then, when time is right, the way before you suddenly clears---through no effort of your own.  What you have longed for and worked for I present to you freely, as your gift.  You feel awed by the ease with which I operate in the world, and you glimpse My Power and My Glory.
Do not fear your weakness, for it is the stage on which My Power and Glory perform most brilliantly.  As you persevere along the path I have prepared for you, depending on My strength to sustain you, expect to see miracles---and you will.  Miracles are not always visible to the naked eye, but those who live by faith can see them clearly.  Living by faith, rather than sight, enables you to see My Glory."

May we all strive to live by faith & thus be enabled to see His magnificent glory.

"For we live by faith, not by sight."

2 Corinthians 5:7

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